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You are so lucky my dogs like cats, Schwarzer.

[He doesn't look up and he sound shaky and...maybe like he's been crying.]

[motiv8]

Haha. I mean, I'd hope they'd recognize my scent regardless of what I am, at this point.

[Rean bunts his head against Ash's hand. Ash doesn't need to look up, just accept the snuggles.]

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[He shifts to let Rean closer. Unfortunately, he has a dog in his lap so there is no cat dad in lap for now.

He'll get pets, though.]

Fuck, thought I was done with them.

[motiv8]

[That's okay. Rean can find another place to curl up. At his side, on his chest, or just vaguely beside him. That's the nice thing about being small and flexible!]

Well, until they're completely wiped out, I suppose there's always a chance of them rearing their ugly heads again. But you are done with them.

We're not going to let them near you, and we're not going to let them take us, either. I know it's easy to say that, but... you know us by now, right? They're going to have a hell of a fight on their hands if they want to try again.

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[Cats are liquid.]

It's just...they're real fuckin' good at making people disappear. I did some digging, once, to try an' find anything about me from before they got me. As far as the records care, there weren't any baby Johans in Germany when I was born.

[motiv8]

[They sure are! Rean manages to get himself nice and snug up against Ash where he can. Purr, purr.]

I know. They have to be, if they've been doing this for so long. And I won't deny I'm nervous, too.

And I know this doesn't erase the pain of not knowing, but... you're not baby Johan anymore. You're Ash. Our Ash.

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[Oh, oh that is a sniff.]

I'm terrified.

[He said it.]

[motiv8]

I know. And you have every right to be.

I can swear up and down that they won't touch you, but I know that can't touch the memories of what they did to you.

[His voice has an edge to it with "what they did to you." Barely-contained rage. But he continues, softly.]

I might not be able to make all of that go away, but we're still here for you, okay? We love you. And you don't have to suffer this alone, not ever again.

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[....nope moving Berry off his lap to pick up Rean and just.

Just hug him. And cry.]

[motiv8]

[Rean is quick to adjust, because thankfully, he is not actually a full cat and is okay with being picked up. He nuzzles in against Ash's shoulder, kneading his paws lightly wherever they find purchase, careful not to use his claws. He keeps his purrs even, doing his best to soothe Ash with the constant thrum of the vibration.]

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I thought I was safe. That's half the reason I joined the damn Order, they were scarier than the fuckin' labs so I'd be safe.

[motiv8]

Do you think they aren't, now? That they— no, that Jusis won't use everything at his disposal to shut them down?

[A sigh.]

I won't pretend I like either of you being involved with the Order, but I can't really deny they have the resources, here.

[switchaxe]

If the Order ain't managed so far, maybe they can't. Maybe they'll always find me, or Zero, or--

[motiv8]

Maybe they can't stop them from finding you. But a lot of things can find you these days. Hell, advertisers can find you.

But the Order found them before they could get any of you. Which means we can fight back, this time.

[switchaxe]

And next time?

[motiv8]

You're my family, Ash. I have, quite literally, died for people that weren't even that close to me.

And since I promised Elliot I wouldn't go and die again, I guess the only answer is that they're going to have to die instead.

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...anyone else think we're all way too okay with murder to be normal?

[motiv8]

Haha, oh, probably.

[Rean, you are way too okay with this.]

But we passed "normal" a long time ago, didn't we? We're constantly off galivanting into other worlds just as a start. And in this case, we're talking about a lab that experiments on children.

What would you suggest to bring people like this to justice? Being that you're the victim here, and all.

[switchaxe]

[/sweatdrop

Moving on.]

I mean, murder ain't a bad idea with these guys. Finding the labs, freeing the people, and burning them down maybe.

[motiv8]

I think that's a good plan.

Working where those labs are out of this one guy might be a bit of a problem. But we'll see what we can do.

[Boyfriend what can soundproof rooms for torture...

...Rean, when did you go so far off the deep end? When did you all go so far off the deep end? Your player is starting to side with Ash, here.]

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[Rean is valid.]

Good. Just...fuck, Rean.

[motiv8]

I know, Ash. I know.

[What else can you say in this situation, really? Fuck this. Fuck them. But all Rean can really do about it right now is snuggle up here, promise Ash that they're all here for him. That they love him, that they're the ones who should be afraid.

Rean really, really hopes he can keep that promise. He'll never forgive himself if he can't.]

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[It takes a few minutes, but eventually Ash calms down a little.]

Sorry.

[motiv8]

You don't need to apologize. If any of us were in your shoes, I'm pretty sure we would be in just a bad a place, if not worse. It's okay to not be okay, you know?

[switchaxe]

Yeah, I ain't used to that. The...okay not being okay shit.